On willpower

I’ve missed my sport-related lectures. Both of them. Again.

I already gave up on Tai-Chi for this term (I can hear some of my friends laugh by now) and fear for archery as I missed around half the classes by now. At least I can practice the later at home.

By now I know the procedure: first I’ll find a good excuse for missing one class (i.e. driving home, learning for a exam, doing my master thesis). After I’ll gave in once my excuses will get worse until I just don’t go there anymore. Attending those classes is even harder, as they resemble those with compulsory attendance.. which I also despise. My university life is far too chaotic to handle those periodic courses, too much is just based upon ad-hoc decisions and coffee house meetings.

Fortunately most of my future university work is project-based so there are few timing constraints. Still I think that I should try to get more structure into my life. It was possible during the summer as well as last term, so why not now? And it’s time to exercise my willpower, there are three situations left which lead me directly to smoking: during concerts, while going out and in trains, sitting for almost four hours in a smoker’s cabin. I’m gonna stop two of those three, and the middle one is not the one that will be left.

see this needle…a see my hand…
drop, drop, dropping it down…oh, so gently…
well here it comes…i touch the plane… turn me up…
won’t turn you away… spin, spin…spin the black circle

Pearl Jam – Spin the black circle

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